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CHAPTER 73

 21 August 2025

{11:51 PM}

Okay so, like I planned yesterday, I woke up early and started to study a physics lecture. I have decided to skip circular motion all together (for now) and watch oneshot of COM as I am not confident on chapters in the Rotational motion region. So, I am following oneshots for them to get the syllabus completed for the sake of it.

I will focus on lectures after rotational motion is over. I was only able to complete a chunk of COM before it got spoiled so now I'm moving towards ioc first.

Today's tasks are:

  • Chemical bonding (lec + practice) - [O]
  • Binomial theorum (lec + notes + practice)- []
  • WPE (crash course continue)- [O]
  • Mole concept (revision)- []
  • 1 CPT - []
  • Complex no (cont.)- []
Lets see what today brings for me. Cheers!

{4:28 PM}

Idk I feel like crying. Evyerthing feels like a mess as if im lagging behind so much. I tried to attempt some chapter tests today and I just couldnt focus on any one of them and its so frustrating. Why am I lagging behind so much when everyone looks like they re so focused even when they're not. Hope is slowly losing from my body and it is heartbreaking.

I saw a dream worth fulfilling so much that I even took a gap year for it and now I just dont look like I'm working the hardest for it and it is such an insult to my younger self. I deserve the life I want but I dont feel like Im doing my best to achieve it. Fuck everything honestly, 


















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